SchizophrenicX

Catching Up

2011-03-20T16:18:00.003+08:00

Suddenly in the mood of posting.

Last day of Break Week. Which means I'm less than 2 months till Exams.
List of the courses I'm taking this semester...

EE4151 - Quiz Pending

EE4153 - Quiz Pending

EE4109 - Assignment Late

EE4040 - Assignment Submitted

EE8085 - Quiz Done

MP0212 - Quiz Diverted

HMJ1

So yea. Seems like things aren't really going very well... On top of that I've got my FYP too. So basically for the 2 upcoming weeks I really have to buck up a lot. Well for now, it's a great Sunday today and I can't feel the warmth and hope. Don't worry I have no idea what I'm talking about too hahaha!

Setup netplay for MAME emulator for both Flarer and Wen Bin. Been playing some arcade games with them over the net. Haha fun times. Dungeon & Dragon is so nostalgic, but enough of that. Better focus on studying. Yesterday actually got some assignment and stuff done in the middle of the night with Ewan @ 24 Hrs Starbucks Yishun. Thanks to that and a long chat with him I think I found some balance. Really in a good mood now.

Been really enticed with Renodia's, Daydream album : I miss you. Just found it's score and probably would start playing abit :) Been listening to this song non-stop. And it really goes with the weather and mood today :)

Ah well, gotta go help Veron pick out a laptop, congrats to her new job. Hope that things will get better and better for her too :) Time to go~

P.S Kammy Mentioned my links and I just realized many people changed their blog addresses. I think I should update those. But seriously, I've grown out of touch of all these HTML stuff. -.- Maybe I'll take some time next week to update some of these stuff.

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Getting Started

2011-03-07T02:22:00.002+08:00

Blah. Can't do shit at home. Somehow... I think I got comfortable and somehow programmed myself to 'nua' at home. Damnit. Then got out of my house and wanna find a place where I can actually study and organize my thoughts. Ended up in AMK Macdonalds... blah. Sundays. Nowhere to go and everyone's sleeping early cuz it's the dreaded Monday up next.

Quiz tomorrow afternoon and I just got to 80% organizing my thoughts. Hasn't even started studying. Wtf. I really need to pick things up... This is week 7 coming up and I hasn't really started taking things seriously enough.

On a seperate note, somehow the school fees got deducted from my bank account and after going through so many things to get some cash in my hands, they just got deducted. This doesn't make sense, the school loan have already been dispersed or at least that's what I thought. How come I just can't have a peaceful semester to do things. ARgh!!!

Well at least I'm getting things done little by little, albeit still not in the pace that I'd like to, let's hope the pace starts to pick up now. I've already given up my China trip, Genting trip and I really wanna go visit Vincent and Cedric in Vietnum this July, I don't wanna have to give up even that. -.-|||

Enough ranting now, time to get back to studying. Argh can't get used to using Mac, need to find Ewan and get some tips.

P.S It's a given that I have no social life right now and in fact some of my acquaintance don't even recall who I am via FB hahaha!!

SchizophrenicX

"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Blog Re-open

2011-02-26T02:53:00.004+08:00

Well what-do-you-know right after my ranting I feel like doing it immediately. Reopened and feels refreshing. Can't care less about others reading and it feels like I'm getting some of my lost strength back already. Thanks to myself haha, decided to do it after reading last year's post.

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

I'm still stuck in school

2011-02-26T02:37:00.003+08:00

ok. so I hasn't been on blogspot for ages. It's locked anyway so no one would know and I'm just bitching to no one.

I'm still schooling shit wtf. I've extending my graduation by 2 whole years. WTF is wrong with me. I gotta buck up damnit.

2 whole years I would've completed a master's course by then. Shit what am I doing. Something is wrong with me.

Met Flarer 2 days ago and played D&D2:SoM and he mentioned about there was once we played D&D1 which I can't recall. To which he said "Wah your memory damn sux". I thought to myself. Crap for this past year what have I been doing and I can't recall at all. Seriously I think there is something wrong with me.

It seems like I've given up on striving for anything anymore after the whole depression issue after the big breakup thingy and the passing of my grandma. Now although I don't feel so upset anymore but hey, I'm not doing anything productive too :(

Although the business is growing, albeit in a much slower pace than I like, but it's not making me any happier. School started and upcoming would be the sixth week. Which is like mid term and I hasn't even attended a single class. Fuck I need to wake up my idea. and my registration of classes only just started. I have like 8 courses and on top of that I STILL hasn't done anything about my FYP. I think I will start with my area at home and start tidying stuff so I may concentrate better. And just when I finally wanna get my arse moving. PNSD has to recall me and go do shit and it has to clash with my quiz.

Hasn't done anything physical and has since gained 15 kg for the past 2 years. I need to get moving. Probably after the hair cut in the morning.

And also I'm bombarded with bills and debts. Hasn't had contact with music for a long time. Although thanks to Veron for giving me her earpiece that now I have the option. Although iPhone radio over 3G consumes uber battery life for my liking -.-

Damn my life sux. I used to love my life and myself. I really wonder what happened. Sigh...

P.S Saw Kammy's post and decided to rant here, felt pretty good. I gonna be meeting Stacy in after I shower and eat Carl's Jr before going for my haircut and doing admin stuff for school and stuff.

P.P.S I'm considering reopening my blog but then again revamp is gonna cost me precious time and energy. I think if I make my blog public again I probably wouldn't bother about the aesthetics for now

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Lapse Time

2010-09-21T05:09:00.003+08:00

So much had happened and all of a sudden, so little went through and it felt so empty. Without warning almost a whole year past since I last revisited here.

I realized everyone else were experiencing the fast track and hostility of the real world. So many friends got attached, married, separated & even divorced during the last few years. So many of you already had kids, children and some are a few years old. I hasn't even visited, met or even called. I'm sorry.

Candy & Ferlyn both got married, and apparently got/getting divorced. Grace and Kammy both went through a very difficult ordeal with death. Myself and many others too. And then there are people getting together and breaking up every so often. The bitching of lifestyle, worklife, politics just kept coming. There are so many others, even everyday on Facebook. Joanne, Joshua, Cheryl, etc doesn't seem like there's a single glimpse of good news, this world needs more love.

Had a good long break to recharge, didn't think it'd work but it did, woke up with a great drive within me. I thought I was always like that but I wasn't, not with so much negativity generated around me everyday and every single moment in my life, my mom, Stacy, my brother, Wen Bin, etc. just siphons every bit of positive energy off me and before I knew it I wasn't the person I was and loved years ago.

When I take a good look back in my life, I was always energized and never faltered in my belief. So what happened? In such short notice that devastated all these optimism in life that I've accumulated over so many years. I don't know, but I don't like it. I guess this is all it takes, to recognize that this isn't me, isn't the way I like it and isn't the way I will ALLOW it to go on.

I think back to the past, thing I really gave a damn about and things I don't give a shit fuck about. Why? Why did I change so much? For what? For whom? And what happened then? Why did I start to give a shit about things I did not? Why didn't I put more effort into things I cared about before? Many of you probably has an answer for me. (But of course, this blog is closed to myself only)

I want to take back my life, be in control and everything I was. Ivan was right, I wasn't half the person I was when he knew me. I need to find out what's missing and be the person I am again, I've been doing everything I can recently and the momentum has been building up. I will once again stand atop and be able to hold my head up high. Once again be able to confidently speak of the person I am with no reserve, with pride, and be proud of myself. I don't want to become the wimps I speak of every so often and so help me anyone who stands in my way will be stricken down with all the momentum I have right now.

I will once again be the light that shines in the dark for those who leap their faith in me and lead the way. Be the spearhead for those who have put their trust on me to penetrate through these maze of difficult times.

No more wimpy Mr.Niceguy, no more 2nd 2nd 2nd chance, no more, my friends, I will get rid of every single cancer cell in my life & soul and become stronger than ever. I am back. No Mercy. My name is Aw Tian Zun. Ore Wa, Tian Zun-Sama Des.

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Stop

2009-10-03T11:17:00.002+08:00

I'm not that strong, at least not anymore. I've been wounded. Over & over. Before I could even recover.

Stop.

Stop it I say.

I was never that strong to start with. No one thinks so though. Why? One would say, "If it doesn't kills you; It'll make you stronger". I guess that's true. I felt that I'm stronger than I was.

What if I do die from all these. Who would've cared?

Stop it.

Even if I don't die, and gets stronger. So what? So that I can take more abuse? I'd say no thanks and certainly...

Stop.

Don't think I've been abused enough? Think not? Think again.

What's with this shit. I'd say fuck this shit, but I can't.
I'm hurt; no one cares.
I bruise; so what.
I bleed; so what.
I break; so what.

I'm not dead; so keep going at it. It makes me stronger so I could take more.

Everytime, I tell myself to get up, and optimistically wishing for what might be Next, and its the same thing over and over again; just to get beaten down again.

Every-single-time, I got up. A little stronger each time; just so I could take more and go down again.

I'm injured, hurt, wounded, , suffering, in agony, misery, pain; and all I wanted, to say is,

Stop.

Please.

Stop.

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Buck UP

2009-10-02T13:02:00.000+08:00

I really need to buck up. Life sux as it is and I want out! Argh.

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Blog Reopened?

2009-09-22T06:15:00.003+08:00

Recently, got to know this girl Ferlyn, really nice and cute and such.

She also had a blog here but it was closed the first time I tried to get there. She said she was upset about it.

Just did a random attempt and was surprised her blog re-opened.
Really felt like doing the same.

She deleted all her archives for reasons I know.
Really felt like doing the same.

That's her right there, ain't she a beau? Haha. I think I'll continue to keep to myself for awhile. I don't bare to delete my achives. It means to me I'm rejecting my own past, I treasure my memories. But at the same time, I don't feel like opening this blog to anyone. Because of obvious reasons some individuals knows.

Well. School's been really a bitch. And that reason has been huanting me non-stop. I wish I could just get it over with. When will I be able to live like the norm. I think thats' overrated.

My HDD was wiped. All my years of stuff were gone. Unfotunately. But in a way, its significant. Just like what Ferlyn did. I wonder if I could do that too. It's been awhile since I came back here and it feels so nostalgic.

That also meant all my MP3s were gone. That's pretty upsetting, all the songs wrote, played and sang were gone. Ferlyn currently have this absolutely gorgeous song playing on her blog, I can't bare to close her blog because of that, even though there's only like 2 entries, haha. The song is just beautiful. I think the next time I actually get to go to sleep, I'll listen to it.

Ferlyn's being mean right now by firstly, making me hungry and secondly going to get food while telling me to go eat alone. what the hell.. I think I'll really go grab some food ba. It'll be 3.5 Hours till 10 AM Tuesday, that'll mark the 72 hour (3 days) that I've been awake without sleep or rest.

I'm really tired. Who would know. I really need someone. Who would be there. Sigh.

P.S Times like this we need kikapoo Ferlyn :D

A Little About Me~ :P~

2008-06-27T02:32:00.002+08:00

11月30日 謀定而后動者

宮位：射手座7º-9º

射手座一

變動的火象

11 月30日出生的人天生就有一種本能：知道什么時候以及怎樣向眼前的挑戰出手反擊。不過這種攻擊行動并非以快致勝，而是采取謹慎、仔細估測且一擊奏交往的步驟。今天出生的人直覺敏銳，出招時也總是讓橫阻面前的對手大吃一驚﹔待回神，對手們才恍然大悟，他們在采取行動之前，可是花了非常多的准備工夫才得以克敵致勝。

只要觀察今天出生者工作的情況，大概就能對他們有所了解。不管是拜訪客房、構思一項提案，或是向某人求愛，他們總量在心里反復演練各種腳本，直到可以應付各種突發狀況為止。在最基本的准備階段結束之后，他們便開始與“獵物”約定時間和地點﹔時間和地點當然也是經過慎思熟慮，并且經過“獵物”的同意之后才選定的。最后，他們便可伺機痛宰這個“獵物”。無論穿著的款式、說話的方式，或是時間的掌握，所有的一切都是極完美地編排好的。一般來說，他們真的是非常令人難以拒絕﹔然而，最好也能對可能的失敗有所認知，并且能夠接受和調適，因為無論他們的說服力如何強烈，畢竟不是每個人都會受他們的擺布。

今天出生的人對于自己擁有的天賦總是能夠發揮到極限，一點多的力氣也不浪費。大多數的今日壽星都很具幽默感，通常只需一個微笑，就能將嚴肅的場面很有技巧地轉化成為較愉快的情境。這種幽默經常很狡黠，但也很可能是猛拍大腿、哄然大笑型的，可說是變化多端又發人深省。由于善于偽裝，他們對別人的譏諷几乎不露任何痕跡，致使大部分的人根本無法察覺到他們的意圖。

雖然一向態度殷勤，但是今天出生的人在被攻擊時，會顯現強烈的防御性，因此最好學著不要對別人所說的話過度反應，或是將自己內心潛藏的不安全感一下子就表現出來。今天出生的人可說是極端的薄臉皮，尤其不喜歡被當作笑柄，對別人的攻擊通常會先筑起一堵硬牆防御，接著便是深思熟慮、伺機大舉反擊，叫對手苦不堪言。由于個性善于等待，今天出生的人必須特別小心不要太過自憐自艾、過度壓抑情緒，或將挫折感直往心底放。比較成熟的今日壽星大多會以寬大為懷的雅量、沉著穩定與摒除惡意的態度，來面對一切指向他們的負面狀況。

今天出生的人通常都有小孩子般的個性，所以，只有真朴的建議和協助才能真正地感動他們。事實上，今天出生的人總是很頑固地拒絕世上各種奸巧的邏輯判斷，不過對于率直和純真卻總是無法抗拒。

幸運數字和守護星

11 月30日出生的人會受到數字3（3＋0＝3）和木星的影響。受數字3影響的人，通常希望在他所從事的領域中獨占熬頭。由于木星同時是射手座的主宰行星，因此諸如開展性、樂觀、寬容的特性和過與不及的個性，也在11月30日出生的人身上發揮到了極限。由于受數字3影響的人熱愛獨立，因此，自己創業或做一個自由業者都能有很好的發展。

健康

今天出生的人務必注意，不要因為精心設計的計划無法成功，或遭到任何挫敗時，就覺得意氣消沉。由于他們是這么地充滿自信，因此只要一碰到失敗，紛亂的心緒就會無孔不入。更嚴重的是，一旦喪失了活力或是穩定的情緒，那種驚恐簡直不可言喻。學習“既來之，則安之”的態度，適度地調整自己，這對心理健康是非常重要的。在生理方面，今天出生的人非常活躍、充滿動力，對食物、性愛和運動也都有很健康的習慣。經常到鄉間和郊外走走，或與貓、狗等寵物一起居信在城市中，對生理或心理健康都很有說明。要避免工作過量，并且要學著調整腳步，承擔太多的責任將會對神經系統造成太大的壓力。若是對別人的負面成見越來越深時，最好能夠避開這些人，千萬不要浪費任何時間試圖去改變這處狀況。

建議

允許自己隨興創作，放輕松。你的自我控制能力是很可取，但是順其自然也同樣是很不錯的生活方式。對于自己的小瑕疵就一笑置之吧。常保赤子之心。

名人

馬克溫(Mark Twain)美國幽默大師、作家，代表作有《湯姆歷險記》及《頑童歷險記》。

愛爾蘭作家史威夫特(Jonathan Swift)，為19世紀時的諷刺大師，作品經常與當代問題相連，超越時空的限制，代表作有《格列佛游記》。

邱吉爾(Winston Churchill)英國首相，為第二次世界大戰時的領導人物之一，這位受世人尊敬的政治家也曾獲得諾貝爾文學獎，晚年常被稱為“目前健在最偉大的英國人”。

美式足球教練比爾華許(Bill Walsh)，為舊金山四九人隊教練，曾帶隊奪得三屆超級杯冠軍，也是體育廣播人。

紐約劇作家大衛馬默特(David Mamet)，也是電影編劇、舞台及電影導演，認為演出的焦點在語言，而不是劇情或其他裝飾。作品有《殺人犯》等。

19世紀美國超越論哲學家阿莫士奧爾科特(Amos Bronson Alcott)，也是冥想團體“果園”的創設人。

塔羅牌

大秘儀塔羅牌的第3張是“皇后”，象征有創造力的聰明才智。她是達到極致的完美女性、是孕育大地的母親，也是我們夢想與渴望的化身。當牌面正立時，這張牌代表魅力、優雅與毫不保留的愛牌面倒立時，則有自負、矯情以及無法容忍缺陷的意思。

靜思語

知識廣博的人，未必具備真知。

優點

考慮周全、有趣、動力十足。

缺點

臉皮太薄、反應過度、直接。

I got this from Iceve on Multiply (I mean the website) and got this result, which I feel that it is the closest thing I have ever I would give it 100% but its kinda impossible for anything to be perfect, so I give it 99% accuracy and leave 1% for what it doesn't say and I don't even know what that is haha~ Sorry for being MIA for so long but it has really been busy, it feels like I hasn't socialise for 3 years, I need to meet some friends up. Anyone up for coffee? Hope I'm not forgotten...

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

----- R E F O R M A T T I N G -----

2008-01-16T18:42:00.000+08:00

A Phase of REFORMATTING

I'm currently REFORMATTING my laptop
my desktop also need to REFORMAT
my handphone also need to REFORMAT
my bike also need to REFORMAT
my attitude needs REFORMAT
my behanvior needs REFORMAT

MY LIFE NEEDS TO BE REFORMATTED

because everything is going wrong, and I'm the cause of everything

I'm 2 weeks backdated on my acedemic schedule
I'm 2 weeks backdated on the website I'm working on
I hasn't clean up my room for more than 2 weeks
I'm 2 weeks off of the tutorials I'm suppose to do
I'm leader of 20 man group for DIP project and I'm at loss
I'm screwing up my love life
I'm screwing up my social life
I don't own any entertainment anymore
I'm still $7,000 in debt
I'm $5,000 behind my own savings plan

damn... I'm good. *sheesh*

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Exam Results Are Out

2007-12-28T23:07:00.000+08:00

*pHeW* I would say, I've managed to pass everything fortunately and hopefully in the new semester, new year, I will do better to increase my GPA, currently @ 4.28, to what is required for a first class honours, 4.5 or better.

Thats all for now, I've got work to do and shows to catch. More updates soon eh :P~

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Aw Tian Zun, Student Very Busy

2007-11-20T06:40:00.000+08:00

Well I'm not surprise to see the same tag I've saw 2 months ago, I hasn't been any more active than it online too, it's school and Stacy lol~ Yea, a lot has been going on but then again, not that much. Well anyway I feel that I've been neglecting a lot of my friends, be it online or offline lol~ I've work many things out, to put it simple. And I pretty much would be able to update this place 2~3 times per week after my current affairs are taken care off.

Well basically, I've been busy coping with studies, and its funny to put it that way as its currently exam period and I'm onto my 3rd paper this Wednesday, Friday than the following Monday will be my last paper and I'm "coping" sounds pretty wrong doesn't it? LOL~ Yea I know I need to put more effort into my school, but a lot have been going through my mind and being put into action.

I wouldn't wanna discuss and disclose certain things but anyway, if you visited my friendster then you probably know I'm going Bintan for my birthday this year, yay~~ haha~ And well, the 'fantasy' come true basically means that my angel (below) and I would be enjoying our time alone taking a break from reality here in SG together :P~

Well, its quite an open secret that I don't normally celebrate my birthday as I always have a tight budget ever since I learnt how to ga-ga, and no such culture runs in my family, but I've been expose to a lot and learn of many things recent years. I thought of many things and stuff, well anyway she wants to do it and I want to spend some special time with her this very special day that never happened so yea, let's hope everything turns out well and we'll be heading toward a better future ahead of us.

And I'm still going to equator a lot as she is still working very hard there, and Chantel, one of the new girl working there bought this erm, mask thing in Ikea and I was just being me I guess LOL~. Hope you guys don't forget about me, sorry for not being around for so long but as things settle down I believe you guys will see more of me. And I hope things be great for all you people out there too :P~

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Memorable Day

2007-10-02T00:17:00.000+08:00

Today, 1st October 2007 2359hrs Marks a very important day of my life. Firstly, my financial plan finally start to see positive figures in the next 6 months and that means I will finally be cleared off all my debts including school fees and able to spend some real cash if I wanted to by the time I graduate. Secondly, I finally got in place my room, my life, a great attitude running and I didn't make my darling angry today and finally, last but not least, its the first day of my life that I decided to put my pride down and do some actual "mugging" or studying if you would.

Uni life's been very hectic for me and its becoming increasingly hard to juggle between that, my finance and my social life. I wonder if those people whom actually could go for minors and does CCA in school have any social life at all, the only "social" life they might have must be from school itself. Doh~ Well, I believe the people you'd probably be dealing with in the next phrase of life would probably be those guys around us anyway but isn't that the case that we should head out and indulge ourselves in other types of social entities? Well, all these are subjective anyway.

The pace in Uni is pretty harsh for me and I should probably be off to studying now, hopefully I'd be able to cope with all these shits the society now demands of me and have a better lifestyle after I'm through with all this bullcrap. I so miss everyone in my life, or rather, used to make up a big part of my life. (i.e Jimmy, Stanley, Rae, Janet, some of you people reading this right now :P ) But I guess all of us is just too busy rushing ahead of others to turn back and do some catching up. I hope life's great for everyone whose crossed my path and The Best Is Yet To Be!

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

I wonder...

2007-08-23T03:28:00.000+08:00

Sometimes... Why do I blog for... No one ever reads, tags, etc. and in fact I doubt anyone really knows my, friendster, msn, blog address, e-mail, etc.

So I wonder... why do I manage so many online stuff when, seriously. I'm just a nobody whom nobody would really gives a damn about.

*s|gH*

Well its 3 weeks into school life, still hasn't gotten back to the "usual" (so-called) 'me' yet. Not used to schooling and absorbing so much info. digest and spat it out straight away. On top of that, I hasn't chose a CCA, hasn't decide to take up minor or not (next semester), hasn't found a temp job, etc.

Well nothing much, I don't even take much photos in school in fact. I just feel so isolated now, and its funny, I have my neighbour, primary school friend, secondary school friend, poly mates, NS mates and even friend and acqaintances from outside in school now. But seriously... I don't feel like I'm welcome. No I don't. :(

STILL, I've been in Equator a lot, maybe I have no other places to go to, and no other people to meet. But, I want to be there, but everytime I go there I get so disappointed, and I anger people and stuff. What am I? Some super villian? Everywhere I go I bring destruction? WTF...

Sometimes, I feel so hurt, down and sad. But I'll be the one to apologise for spoiling the day, atmosphere, etc. etc. Am I just confused? I mean aren't I the one being beaten up, so why am I the one cheering others up instead?

Sometimes, when I'm very upset, and people does stuff (like above mentioned) to me, and it makes it worst and I begin to wonder, so is there anyone who would do the same to me? Cheer me up? Concern about me? Care about my feelings? I guess I've been so nice to everyone because I just wish one day someone would do the same to me. Its very simple logic, do to others what you want others to do to you. But I guess it doesn't really work that well.

Well anyway, time stops for no man and life goes on isn't it? Life's been shitty to many and not just me. I shouldn't whine about so much stuff after all. I mean after all, I've been through all these for 23 years coming, and I'm still alive even though it feels like my heart hurts so much it would stopped anytime.

Please don't disappoint me and keep me in one piece. Don't break me anymore.

"Fragile, Handle with care"

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

S.U.M.O

2007-08-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

I think I bitch too much. From today on, I'm gonna try to SUMO.

Shut.Up.Move.On

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

1st Week of School

2007-08-08T02:09:00.000+08:00

Well I wasn't in the mood for pictures as I'm beginning to hate my stupidity for not applying for hostel accomodation, it takes an average of 2 hours to get to school on a good day, and on a bad one? It just takes $20, on cab fare.

What was I thinking brushing off NTU stuff and straight kicking into fun right after ORD, in fact I was just doing all the financial assistance schemes only to find out applications for scholarships and sponsorships are all expired. DAMN MY MIND MUST BE MADE OF BLOCKS OF GRASS THAT TASTE BAD.

Ah well, life goes on isn't it? I still applied for other scholarships that are available right now, bursaries, CCC/CDC, work-study schemes, applied for jobs within school, NTU-Study Loan, etc. etc. Let's hope I get a positive reply soon.

I should just let this hostel thing go, its already been like what? A month since I was bitch'in over it, and now it all huants back and I've been bitch'in `bout it over this 2 days of school. But travelling's been a real killer, I hope my bike comes back soon :(~

I guess I've pretty much decided on Lenovo IBM ThinkPad X61 for my lappy, but here comes another problem-o~ Where do I get $2.6k Cash? Hmm... 4D tomorrow, wonder what number should I buy? My Student Number? 072354E03? or My Account Number? Z070316? Or? AHH~ Theres just too many numbers around... I hasn't decided my electives and most of them are already taken up. DAMN! Argh, and I'm still considering whether or not I should take up minors this semester... ARGH!! I'm so confused and frustrated right now damn...

I hasn't meet her for the past 2 days, it feels like back in the days of boring poly life... Seriously, and I mean those days when I just started it... No friends, no entertainment, no nothing. Plain-o me. Met Cheryl & Veron today for a smoke, then went Funland for a few games. Realise I'm pretty broke now... AHHH!~~ I need $$$.

If I have 1 Million dollars~!~

*Keep Dreaming~~~

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Start of School

2007-08-06T04:43:00.000+08:00

Yeap as promise, update. But ah well, nothing much happened... Except the horrigible school is gonna start in a few hours time, I've only been through the timetable for a FEW HOURS. Damn it, seems like I just can't get the slots I want. I probably would finish school around 7 PM for a few days. EXCLUDING CCAs. Omg~ Anywayz, for the first week (or two) I probably won't have much, Thursday's national day anyway so ya...

Other than that, it was Wei De's Birthday... Happy Birthday dude!! We've had some fun time before and we went Sakura for dinner that day, no pics though, I've been lazy taking and transfering :(~ After that they went Party world which I didn't quite stay, before I left I knocked over a few drinks over Alex, Julia, Wei De & Evelyn. Omg I'm so sorry I guess I was tired.

Well, I've had enough of Timetabling, realised after I fitted everything that I forgot to put in one core module, which in the end conflicted with my minor -.- Man!!~ Gotta redo them tomorrow or something, for now just wanna blog. Other stuff I need to do for my new school would include, finding a CCA, getting my notes, apply for financial aids and BUY A LAPTOP!!!

The school is selling Lenovo IBM Thinkpad X61 & T61, I've been kinda loyal to IBM Thinkpads and I love every bit of them, in fact I feel that they are inexpensive relative to what they pack in a box. The executive looks, beautifully compacted and integrated display, keyboards with the best ergonormics ever, considerate designs, everlasting durability, brutal performance, etc. etc. My last IBM Thinkpad (T30) lasted me a whooping 5(or 6) years!!! But this time, (after merging with Lenovo) all of a sudden... It disgust me, the puny battery life, crappy design and for once, I actually took a walk around stalls for other brand lappys.

To my surprise, Acer have been doing pretty well and LG (as usual) have those crazy price tags on gorgeous looking devices you just swear they come from outer space. Well I've been looking @ a LG tablet that quite fit my needs, but what I'm seriously considering this time would be Sony Vaio. :P~

I'm actually looking for those really small and compact laptop this time (My previous was all-rounded and balanced), I've been wanting to own one cute little lappy like my pet dog and this time I'm gonna stick with it (I hope...), the most common problem would be the graphics card (as processors nowadays calculate faster than the speed of light and RAM hasn't been much of a problem since its price reccession lol) as nowadays they like to use those Intel integrated graphic cards that uses shared memory and promised more than they can do.

I'm really looking at those two up there and tomorrow I'll be going to Sony Vaio gallery to check them out. Hopefully the size of VGN-SZ483N/C doesn't disappoint me, its probably the only machine Vaio have that fits what I wanted except no dimensions were mentioned... though I roughly estimates it to be a well balanced model for 5.1mm thickness for its screen (@ 13.3") else I would have to vouch for VGN-TZ17GN/B which... Uses some lame shitty Intel graphics chip (BooHoo~)

I won't be getting my bike till weekend I guess, well anyway I have no money to pay for everything anyway, guess I'll have to take public at least till mid month :(~ And the worst part of it all? I won't be seeing my darling till Thursday. Omg~ I think I'm gonna suffocate and die... Argh!!!

Ah well, more pictures next time aite~ Time to get something to eat and read about all the financial aids openning today. :P~

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Sorry People

2007-07-31T03:31:00.000+08:00

Ok, First off I'd like to apologise to the already negligible amount of population that actually cared about my well being. So sorry people I've been really busy, not with work, not with school, but with my new life. As attached.

Erm. Yes basically I'm attached now, and its official but we've been overcoming certain past that kept huanting together for awhile. Anyway, though most of you might already know it the unfortunate lady is Stacy (Below). I know theres been rough and doubtful past between us, after all these years we're back together so I hope all of you give us the blessing we've deserved.

Anyway since its been so long since I last updated I don't think I can just do "the usual" where I just summarize the few boring days that's passed in my life. So it seems like a new start and tomorrow will be better I'd like to bring all your visions to what I call my New life and some stuff that I really need done.

1. I've cleared all my creditors except for one and whats left would be debtors, those who owe me money OEI!~ Automatic hor! haha~ The one mentioned above is my Mom haha~ I owe her $25,000 of school fees LOL~

2. Attached! Yes, Me & Stacy : Happily Ever After. High Life Here We Come!! Weee~ Shower Us With Your Blessings :P~

3. NTU!! C? LoL~ Well NTU starts Monday 6th August Wish me luck on maintaining/surpassing 2nd Upper Honors :P~~ Who Doesn't Love/Hate Stress? HAHA~

4. Growing up? OMG~ Time to grow up, I'm like 23 this year damnit~ Suddenly I realise I don't have much time left doh~ At this rate If I were to have a kid now by the time I'm 35 he/she'd be as mature as me.

5. Damn I need to freaking clear out my room and my PC! I need a new laptop too, and much to my surprise I FUCKING MISSED THE APPLICATION FOR HOSTEL ACCOMADATION even though I've been SO FUCKING LOOKING FORWARD TO IT! FUCK!!!

6. I wanna new LAPPY! AND I WANT TO REVAMP MY BLOG! NEW LIFE NEW START EVERYTHING NEW!!! LOL~~

Well thats all I can think of now, just want to update a little for all you people to know what's been up. More of me 5th of Aug. As for now. FREEDOM! I promise better post on 5th k~ So people start tagging me and show me your support!~ :P~

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

ORD OO~~

2007-06-14T14:02:00.000+08:00

Long time no post. Many things happened... Wanted to post some stuff, some pics but... Just too lazy ba I guess... Too many things to get done before I... ORD~~~!!!! WAHAHAHA~

I just got my PINK I/C~~ Suddenly the color PINK is so nice~ My Top-Left-Edge-Chipped NRIC with my little cute chubby handsome 12 yr`o photo on it~~ OMG~ I Miss It So Much~~ Now I just have to show to all my juniors and tell them their time will come and I will be able to leave in peace~ LOL~ WAHahaha~~

OMG~~ After soo soo sooooo long~ FINALLY~ The day has come~ ORD OOO~~~ LOL~ More time to update after my genting trip tomorrow~~ LOL~ Had it all planned out, I'll be back Sunday and available on Monday. Hopefully with more pics LOL~

P.S I Miss You Guys~ Sorry For The MIA~ :(~

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

When demands are not met...

2007-04-12T06:11:00.000+08:00

Na Si Wa Wu Ji Pa Ban~~~ Ji Pa Ban~~~

Totally random pics I've taken past few weeks. Been very busy, trying to strike stuff off my list on the right. Basically I'm down to 1 last guy on debts and my room to be packed and computer to do up before ORD. Then I'll start my prep. on NTU and most of the stuff there would most probably be off.

Kinda busy recently, tons of meeting and discussions over proposals and stuff. A real big thanks to Julia for passing me all her NYP lectures notes and stuff, my leisures :P~ I'll most probably be busy over my prep. for NTU as soon as the last few things are done over New Cycle World.

Too many things to be done but so little time sighya... Didn't have time to MSN, no time to blog and not even time to play WOW, sorry Faisal... Zzz -.- Theres just too many things coming up and too much of a confuse brain could take. Even my sleeping hours are really screwed.

Well, anyway... A few new additions to my wardrobes, recently I've been shopping around. I've been thinking of selling all my comics away, they literally MAKES up my room. LOL~ Blah, I'm even blogging in a mess... WtF mAn~ ArGh... No LiNK!! LOLx~

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

No Updates

2007-03-14T09:55:00.000+08:00

Yea, have been kinda busy. Setting up and getting ready for my part time job and actually working. Blah Blah, First day on the job, straight 32 hours of delivery, did some simple maintainence for my bike after getting the days pay and went home with a fractured toe.

Just went TTSH this morning, x-ray. 2 cracks on my toe. 7 days MC after which will be on light duty. 3rd of April going to TTSH Bone Specialist, maybe get more MC, then after that clear leave will ORD O~~ haha.

Well then, since I'm immobilized the Sentosa trip has been cancelled le. Sianz, I will mass msg in case no one reads my blog. Tagboard's kinda dead too :( I wonder what happened to all you people Zzz.

Tomorrow suppose to be PDT re-certification, I'm on MC and don't get to go so I'm losing $100 bux of ops allowance for the coming month, ah well no can do about it. Sir just don't let me go. 23rd will be Roland's chalet, and 29th jun would be Julia's, man I didn't even know she graduated already. Time really does flies.

I needa go pack my room and go get a haircut, gonna look like crap again but ahh well. Many summons and bills to pay and then finally will get some time to sit down and plan my stuff. 11th April will be NTU's Medical Checkup haha~ And then I will finally log in to my World of Warcraft a/c later in the day.

Some Random pics

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Weekend On Leave~

2007-02-27T00:57:00.000+08:00

Hasn't update for 4 days eh... Haha~ Due to the busy weekend, well not so for Friday when I thought Diana's party was on, but it was actually Saturday. Heck, I pushed everything aside for these few days for the party. But ah well don't wanna speak too much of how I feel but maybe of how it went ba.

Anyway, Friday 24th I ended up watching Youtube the whole bloody day until someone called me. I can't really remember argh, brain is failing me. I think its supper call then back to youtube. I was watching Naruto the whole day till I passed out lol~

Then it was Diana's chalet, woke up and Diana drove Ivan down to my place, I was thinking whether I should ride, and in the end I did. We first went to white sand to get some really random stuff. Then to the chalet, I was so latargic off all the vid watching. But heck Diana wanted balloons and so I was "in-charge" of decorating the place with balloons we bought back in white sand.

I kinda did a good job blowing up tons of balloons, and Ivan helped me too. For those we think Love Shape Balloons is a good idea, it isn't. They blow up easily and don't end up in a Heart Shape, at least not before they explode in your face. Look at how much effort I put in, I even climbed on top of Ivan just to decorate her chalet ok~~ haaZ~

Anyway, Diana face black almost whole day lor, then I kana scolded lor, and then I didn't get to get Stingray lorz, and neither did I had any Cakes, nor went Wild Wild Wet, or much attention, AHEM! Adeline!! Argh. All these people so bad to me.

Well, finally after everything settled down a little passed midnightz, things got a little better. Ken called me and Steph was around saying that she was like emo and down and stuff, I got them to come down so we can brush all that aside and just enjoy. Which they did!! ha~ So OnZ~ Diana didn't mind them too *wELL I hOpE LOL~* I mean, their a nice bunch la... Well we watched 見鬼10, played indian poker (As Ivan suggested), had much booze and everyone was pretty much knocked out. Kaisheng came down around evening too, after meeting his GF! As USUAL! *pUi* he change a lot lor, now we call him 有異性;沒人性.

But aiya, everyone is like that. So no can do about it. Sighya, oh yea suddenly remembered, ORD should be a happy occasion but seems like when I ORD massive number of friends won't be around to celebrate le sigh... I mean Jimmy already out of town, Stacy getting married, Diana flying, Cynthia, Cheryl, Veron, Shi Hui, Jonathan, Ken, Steph, Flare, KS, JW, Ally etc.etc.etc. have all MIA for god knows how long, got into love prison, left my life for good (I hope) or plain vanished already. Man, sounds pretty sad eh. Zzz~

Blah, we all had crazy time chit chatting till morning break. Then Ivan needed to head to Audrey's house to 拜年 while I gotta go meet Kid n Co. in Sentosa w00t, nothing much and phone was down while there. We went to get ourselves the Islander card and planned to hit the wave every Sunday, so anyone wanna join me can please give me call :P~ After which I send Kid to Bedok, had dinner there and guess what.

We saw Chingay!! WTF~? And Fireworks... WT... FFF!!!! LOL~ Yes, its true. I took vidz on my HP and some pics for you people. I'm not joking LOL~ Well anyway then went home and was exhausted. Slept till today morning, gave Flare a call and went serangoon for his MC, then to International Plaza and got ourselve a job. After that, fetch Stacy off work and had Pizza hut in Bedok central. Then send her to work @ EQ. Me and Flare then headed off to Marina Square and played Dungeons & Dragons II: Shadow Over Mysteria.

One game and we're done. Fetch Haze, Flare's gf off work and we all went seperate ways. Home I come and did practically nothing, was having this nice little chat with Ally Eleanor after such a long long time. Oh and saw Irene online. w0w lol~

Well.. I was getting lazy to blog but I figure these are those kind of things that once you stop, you'll stop for a long time so ah well. Oh, and I needed go sleep now, later 6:30 gotta go work le. Not enough leave liao ahaha~ I'm hitting the Hundred count down for ORD~ Yay~ haazZ~ Gonna have one more stuff striked off my list soon enough :P~

P.S Yea Glen, doing pretty fine though not as great as you guys :P~
P.S Diana, pics are up on my multiply photos link. Been trying to get multiply to x-post :( Will update tonight :P~ Just finished my ORD Courses!!~ Whoopee~~

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

IPPT!! SILVER!!!

2007-02-23T11:10:00.000+08:00

Yeap, 21st Feb, normal day at work cept for the new vest we had to wear which was burning inside. -.- .

Then, evening time, met Cedric, Jiawei and headed to John's GF place, so theres Me, Cedric, Jiwei, John Fok, Michelle (John's gf), Angus (aka. Sotong), Elaine (Angus's gf) and Zi Kai. All was playing blackjack cept me, cuz I don't gamble.

So booze, blackjack, xbox, etc.etc.etc. till morning then ZK, Ang, Elaine all left, Me, john, mich, Ced & JW went Mac for breakfast. Chit chat till 8 AM, where I had to leave for my IPPT!! OmG~ LOL~

Guess what, its super irritating, I took the corner heading to the finishing poing and the clock went from 09:59 --> 10:00 then this was what went on in my head... "WTF, its less than 300 meters from here on, I must've been less than 30 sec away from 09:44, KNNBCCB)!(@#^&(*^$(*!)@(#*(^$!&(@*#_)*)$*&!(*@#$)(!@*$#" until I reached the finishing line.

Shit man, I was so close to getting a gold, yet so far. I had a Silver!! Blah! At least I made my mark. Something to strike off my list LoL~ I've got all 5 points till 2.4 :(~ Well.. then I got home, done for the day. Super exhausted and fell aslp after good warm bath and realised its. 10AM in the morning, 23rd Feb. WTF!!

Guys, Sentosa postpone to 1st March due to In-service (8-5) I'm gonna have. and this coming Sunday will be Sentosa also! LOL~ So please sign up with me now! Looking for more people!! Whoopee!~

P.S Happy Birthday Diana!! Haha~

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Chinese New Year

2007-02-21T05:48:00.000+08:00

Well... I've been busy this whole CNY, first off. Hope all your wishes have came true lol~ Don't worry if it hasn't, it will in time to come :P~

It was CNY eve and I'm suppose to 守夜, I woke up around 11 AM, my mom was cooking up steamboat with the lame cooker I got for serving IMF. We had sorta 'reunion' dinner then. So well, after which I was pretty bored with nothing to do. I stayed home and started writing testimonials for all my chinese friends on friendster =P~ Then played WOW a little before I met Wen Bin up around 6~7 PM, been a while since I met him. The usual coffee place, Bishan North Shopping Mall Kopitiam heh

So ya, we chatted till he had to go for his reunion dinner. We agreed on movie and started calling some friends, apparently everyone was reunion and stuff. Ken and Ivan was on for movie and we all decided on Ghost Rider and the show was magnificent for its visuals. Every scene was WOW and only one word can describe the movie in whole '帥' !! w00t man~ haha

It was a midnight show and we watched it till around 2~3 AM, Wen Bin and Ivan was tired and went home, I sent Ken back then I did some surfing till morning. Before it was time to go 拜年 haha~ Went to Clementi my 2nd Uncle's house (My Mother side) and slack there till evening, around 6~7 PM.

After which I went to my father side of the family, which is at AMK. My mom and my bro felt kinda weird if we go, but I still did went, representing my family sorta thing, they were awkward and paiseh so find some lame excuse and pushed it. This is the second time I went for my father's side, and god. He wasn't even there, doh. Anywayz, I realise I am uncle of more than 10 and am even granduncle of a few already. WTF!?!~ I'm OLD!!!

Evening time, met Ken up for some slacking, dinner, pool, arcade, etc. Then decided we needed more entertainment. First idea was to go for k box, we proceeded to calling everyone in our phone book but seems like the whole world was exhausted from 拜年 and still have 初二 2nd round. Rae even scolded me for calling late :(

Kelvin can't 拜年 this year so he wanted to get out. After a long chat begging Biyi to get out (to no avail) we all went home and refresh first. Then I went to pick Ken again and dropped him at LANLab, then to Bishan and picked Kelvin up and we all met at LANLab for some DotA-ing. And before we know it. It was already 11 AM!!! Haha~

Well, Ken was super tired and went home, since Kelvin can't visit any relative I accompanied him and we had crazy idea of K-Box (AGAIN!!) haha, its K-Lunch session and we managed to get Wei Ting!! Yes Wei Ting we all love you =P~ We had much fun until Wei Ting's BF came and she left. We then did some shopping in AMK and chatted till 6 PM before I sent him home and went to TPY Sizzeler to meet up with Jessica (hvf), Vince and Simon (VaDeR) for reunion dinner haha~ It was so nice seeing them all well.

My handphone was dead at this point of time already haha~ Yeap. after which I think I went home and wanted to meet Sylvia for another show, but my exhausted body got the better of me and I slept on my lovely chair. LOL!~

I woke up late, then chatted with my bro over lunch till late about his future, studies, and etc. Then Stacy called, asking for movie haha~ well I'm on for it since it was my last day of everything. Then Ken called for dinner and pool, so I met Ken and had fulfilling dinner, went to fetch Stacy and we all watched Norbit haha~ No photos though, wasn't in the mood lol~ Reached home and is currently compiling Beginning of Fantasy :P~

Am just done, finally finished blogging and now gonna rush to work, tonight will format this post might look like crap haha, today will have to start wearing vast -.- or some crap. Be back with photos haha.

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Happy Chinese New Year To All :P~

2007-02-16T05:00:00.001+08:00

Yea well. Just a simple post today for a simple day :P~ Tomorrow I'll be on leave and I have no plans for these few days, just stay home and accompany my family :P~

So yea, Monday will be dinner with Vince, Simon and Jessica :P~ Photos then, today just had mini steamboat with my mom and bro, my 4th uncle is here now and I just finished sending testimonials on Friendster to all my friend :P~

May all of your wishes come true this year and I'll be ORD`in soon oh yea~ :P~ haha~

Was just chatting with Liping lor, and just look at her nick omg~
~~>BeYoNd<~~我就是我是颜色不一样的烟火天空开阔要做最坚强的泡沫我喜欢我让蔷薇开出一种结果孤独的沙漠里一样盛放的赤裸裸~~
Shes damn horny lor, haha~

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Valentines

2007-02-16T05:00:00.000+08:00

First off, day before VDay, went to Geylang for transport. Abel was busy so Faisal ferried me with Abel's BMW320 to HP in Jurong to collect my desktop (Yay~~) Yeap, all thx to these 2, especially to Abel who've helped me a big bunch all these while, we'll definitely be keeping in contact after he ORD this coming March. Some pics from HP warehouse =P~

Anyway, got Diana to go for lunch after collecting my desktop from HP warehouse since it was more like on West Coast Highway and super near her place. Fortunately for me that there was these people because it was raining like crazy, Faisal had a friend around the area and they were like having some private chat so in the end I drove the vehicle back home to drop my desktop and back to Geylang to return it to Abel before I rushed Diana down to Paradiz, she was already late :( Sorry Diana, and don't be scare la I can drive ok~ haha Look at me~ haaz~

So there you go, my new desktop heh~ Laptop returned to Abel, these few days have been busy setting my desktop up. BTW heres the spec :P~

Hawlett-Packard Company Compaq Presario Intel(R)
Pentium (R) D CPU 3.00 GHz, 3.00GHz
512 MB RAM
160 GB HDD
NVIDIA GeForce 7300 LE (PCI-Ex)
TSSTcorp CD/DVDW TS-H652M
19" LCD Monitor
3 x Primary IDE, 3 x Secondary IDE, 3 x Standard Dual Channel PCI IDE Controller
Realtek RTL8193/810x Family Fast Ethernet NIC
2 USB Ports
Standard US Keyboard, Standard Optic Mouse

At night, met up with Stanley, Wei De & Chong Ming and had a mini-reunion dinner with them, its been awhile, a long long while. I wonder when will we ever have the time like that again. I'm suppose to be meeting them on VDay for new year shopping in the morning but heck I can't wake up in time after all the setting up of the desktop and stuff, then need to help my mom clear up stuff =.=

Vday itself I was only kinda 'free' after 7PM so in the end I went to TPY to get Gracie mei her Strawberry Milk Tea w/ Pearl as I've promised, and she gave me this pretty little lollipop for VDay, how nice of her haaz~ Then I went to have a nice chat with Cheryl who was also working that day before I went home for more setting ups of my desktop. By the way, guess what? I Saw Cai Shen (God of Fortune) today!! ahaha~

Well then, late evening I went to meet Stanley up and went Yishun for some LAN gaming till morning, before I head to work, nothing much happened on 15th, plain working day lor except I was spotted by Esther haha~, enhanced patrolling with SSgt Syamsul. Total 9 man patrol w00t, everyone was like O.o when they saw us haha~ Then came home, met Sylvia for supper just now and back, still patching certain games, gonna get more programs installed courtasy of Shahanizar (Thx dude~) and of course, more to come from Kaisheng.

Gonna be going for In-Service later (8~5) then I'll be like super shag out come home and start enjoying my CNY~

Happy Chinese New Year everyone :)~

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Disaster Strikes

2007-02-12T22:42:00.000+08:00

Guess I'm not that numb to V-Day at all, I'm kinda short-tempered now, Zzz Anyway, Stella. HaiZ~ Aiya your choice la, don't want to say anymore k. Zzz~ Wintervonz, hai... I also don't want to say anymorezzz. AND worst is that erin lor everyday read never tag. thx lor bo wei kong also.

Sylvia also pro, Zzz don't want to say. Then suddenly everyone disappeared. *argh* Pissed me off, blah! Sux

Went to get Marcus, brought him to AMK center, got his stuff, wasted some time, Chris came down, wasted more time, sent Marcus to deliver stuff, waste more time, wait for his gf to knock off, waste time, then come home, waste time. Zzz~ Guess what? I hasn't got any sleep yet. And that pissed me off.

No photos of me being pissed off, no photos of whatsoever, no photos, nothing more to say, bo wei kong.

WOW prepaid value is dued, no more WOW-ing even, right. Super thx lor. Really bo wei kong liao lor. Go sleep lor. Everything sux.

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Supper!!~

2007-02-12T11:30:00.000+08:00

Stacy was tired so was Stanley and Wei De, and everyone else. Rae sounded like she was sobbing when I called her, well I've been known to have the tendency to always call at the "Wrong-Timing" because everyone would be rather busy with something. I wished I could do something but guess not, the only thing I could do was to leave her ba, she never lets me in on anything personal anywayz. And when I say everyone that included Sylvia -.-

Called everyone, and so happens that Jia Wei (ACS) and Johan was in Marina South playing pool, *pHeW* so met them up for supper around 11:30 PM ? Not sure, River Valley Spize!~ Special Spize Burger!! Check it out man~ LOL~

Yup, I'm darn hungry. After which I went on with Kambing Soup and they were like omg, I mean check out the set, it includes like 2 tons of fries and stuff. But ah well, I'm pretty half-pissed with everyone shutting me away. So well, anywayz its been like since 'O'-Levels when I last saw Johan, we had a very fun chat and stuff.

Look at how much we gobbled up, then it was picture fun time while we digust our food a little and come up with a plan lol~ So like yea, since the other table was empty we needed that to put our empty thrash wahaha~

So finally we decided that since everyone is either off or working nightshift later on, we'll head back to Marina South for some games, pool and bowling. Half-way through we gave up on the idea of bowling because of how full we are, we're kinda afraid that we would puke on the alley lol~ So yea, had like 2 bux of games before we went into pool.

So there was me and Jiawei, he rode his Phantom out tonight, but we both parked at Jo's house since Jo's driving now kekeke~ Ah well, who cares about the hair when you have no one to look at you, it was almost 3:30 AM when we reached there and the darn place was forsaken.

Look closely, these pics are taken when we are about to leave. I blown up the pic abit so all of you can see how 'crazy' we are, as Jo kept whining about, saying that we're like all crazy. I hasn't been out till this 'early' for a long long time man LOL~

Anyway, theres Jo for you guys. Look all matured and manly now. Pretty neat guy, cept maybe for his tummy LOL~ Thats why it isn't included in the pic (The tummy) LOL~ But I should've taken at least one pic with it so to make you girls feel more secure and stop turning aneroxic, but ah well.

So anyway, it was a simple night out without much activity but we had our fun chatting and doing random stuff. Jo still speaks like a machine gun and you can hardly make out the murbur, but its ok, we still love him. Joshua, you should really just stay as lumpy, we love you, but we love you more when you're lumps LOL~

Anyway, on the way back we saw an accident on ECP, though feeling sorry but since I was kinda asleep and didn't see it. The only thing I could do was to... BUY 4D! LOL~ As we all did. Let's hope I strike, QQ pray for me hard hard 10% for you! haha Then I headed home and did random stuff, like squeeze pimple and see from how far I can shoot the paste onto the mirror and stuff (ewww right, lol), am damn freaking worn out but need to stay awake cause later needa go for my 2.4km jog and swimming as I've promised myself.

Left pic was Jo's N73 with flash while the right pic was with my K800i without flash, what do you guys think? Tag =P~

So yea, argh. Crap. K, Marcus just called me to go pick him and back to AMK to get his handphone from Johnson's shop. Ah well, guess I'll have to postpone the run & swim. And as I was saying, yea, Multiply link is up with some updated photos like I said it would. Please go check them out and make a comparison with Photobucket, which do you guys prefer more? (Personally I'll like Multiply, and since it was my old blog).

And how do you people like phantom of the opera? :P~ Gonna be showing in SG I heard, wanna go watch leh~~ Who wanna go with me?

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Currently Listening To

2007-02-12T00:14:00.000+08:00

Nothing much, went to get a wireless router, that has no atenna and no adapter, bought one for it which is like 30 bux then needed another LAN cable for it, finally got everything up tonight. Well I'm still on leave until 15, Thursday. Tomorrow relac one corner, these few days met a few people but can't really remember what I did. Yesterday suppose to meet Stacy up for dinner and movie, I woke up WOW abit then went to L.A.B (Lim.Ah.Boy) for helmet so can pillion her, on the way helped my bro to get his Carborator.

After a long wait, went to Sim Lim to meet Abel, on the way there saw Andy and his gf Sarah crossing the road. Shopping in Sim Lim with Abel, Stacy cancelled the meet so I went home and stuff, finally got the Phantom of the Opera CD from Abel. Know what? The musical coming to SG, wanna go watch but alone like very sian... Somemore no gf to bring kan sianz haha. Can't really remember what I did at home liao, my uncle came and left then I went to sleep I think.

Today, well nothing much, went market with my mom, she on bicycle I jog, breakfast then bought some potato and canned food. Came home, already noon time, she fixed lunch but I had to meet Wei De (Aka. Argu) in Centre with Stanley. Long time never see them lor, still the same generally I guess, Stan had to go after lunch.

I did some shopping with Wei De in the new AMK Hub. Then went his house for awhile on foot, chat abit and stuff then went back to central to get my bike, on the way went to AMK Hub again and saw Marcus Ng (Ah Loy in PCK Pte Ltd) hosting some CitiSpa road show, almost can't recognize him, he not so tall when in Primary sch and Secondary sch lor. His my junior btw lol~ I Primary 5 or 6 that time saw him got people go get his signature lor LOL~

Then wanted to go get my bike that time realise I left my keys at fittness corner near Wei De house nb, so had to go back and get it. While on the way back saw Mei Ting and her ?bf?, also very long time never see her, but I was in a hurry and don't know what to say to her also, say my hair long for NS, long meh? Just cut yesterday only lor, oh yea I went for a haircut and bloody hell $13. CNY cock sia. Blah, nvm pay came in yesterday lol~

Got my keys etc, stopped by funland for a game or 2 of Ez2Dj Plat. the xiao di di and xiao mei mei there see like machiam never see people play b4 lor kaoz. Trac, IcyX or Hexy all better than me la. Mei You Jian Gou Shi Mian LOL!! Anywayz, back home fixed up everything, finally sat down and had "Tuan Yuan Fan" with family, 2 dish lol, tofu + potato haha Aiya, chin cai la.

Then it was 8 le, rushed to watch PCK Pte Ltd for the last time, was cool man. I mean its been around for 10 yrs, I used to be hardcore fan man haha~ Straight after that was Chan U, Turn Left Turn Right, I watched it on theatres and now on TV, so romantic I so super love it. Want to go buy the book Jimmy Liao hahaha~

Anywayz, heres one I found on youtube hope you guys enjoy as much as I do =)~ And IMeem the techno version wahahaha~ Pause the Imeem player when you wanna watch the movie :P~

Was chatting with yvonne on msn after I came back from TV, she was telling me a friend of hers say I quite Yandao after seeing my blog I was like really meh~?? Then she tell me just to make me happy lor -.- kaoz~ But I should've known la, I got zhi zhi zhi ming ok~ But very sianz... Now I going to meet Stacy or Stanley either, depends ba. Back will be WoW ba, whole day no WoW le need to go abit if not also forget my quest suppose to do what haha~ I have this kinda tendency on RPG LOL~

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Nothing

2007-02-10T08:03:00.000+08:00

Yea, as the topic.

I hasn't been blogging simply because theres nothing to blog about, but I figured that everyone would be thinking I've been emo down cause of the upcoming V-Day and as the previous 22 V-Days I've had I would be doing something random things like any other days of the year.

I'm not, yes its sad that I don't have a date for V-Day, but its even sadder when you don't really feel the sting anymore.

I hasn't been doing anything since IPPT day, the moment I ran pass Symsul who was taking our timing, he gave a "forty-four" and I was thinking "OMG~ Heh~ After so long, I'm right on the dot for the golden medal". But no I was wrong, it was 10:44, I'm 60 seconds away from Gold. But ah well, I've hit my target for silver anywayz.

So much for that, then there was nothing to blog about. But I guess I'll still blog about nothing and I realise once I've start typing this, nothing actually becomes something. Yea, everything comes back randomly, like how I met Sylvia for lunch after waking up from a long slumber thru an even longer night of WoW-ing, then I met Flarer, went to Tanjong Pagar had dinner with Stacy then went to where she worked and had some booze while planning for the upcoming weekend.

Which in turn screwed up cause I was WoW-ing so much, so I had to squeeze everything in on the next day. Which prolly will get screwed anywayz, then I met Tien Hou and Yan Hao up for supper when I was supposely meeting them for board games @ Clark Quay (hmm looks wrong nvm brain dead), but I was WoW-ing. Then can't sleep after bro used the connection, and went on ahead to strike off some stuff on the to-do list and to Mustafa for some commodities, then breakfast downstairs with a mag and chat with Wei Jie's dad, and up here typing this bull.

I'll probably be WoW-ing till 11, then go for haircut. Maybe I'll feel like a Saint and accompany the oh-so troubled and worried Sylvia for dental appointment, have lunch, back for some WoW-ing then pick Stacy up @ Bedok Res. for our longed-planned dinner cum movie. Then probably really beat and come home for some rest finally.

I'm on leave till 15, which I will be having full shift. 16 is office hours training. 22nd will be my actual IPPT date, hopefully maintaining my Silver timing and nothing screws up on that day. Monday ~ Wednesday I will be going to stadium for runs and swims @ Bishan. 18 CNY I would be on leave, 19 and 20 I will be having offs.

But I've been WoW-ing, so I don't know... I'm an addict for games, nicotine and caffaine as most should know. Its been screwing up my life for a long time and its back to huant me, but there isn't much you can do when you're on debt, constantly broke, lack of love & entertainment and really emo unstable. So ya, I've been WoW-ing. Call me if you really 1. Have impt stuff, 2. No impt stuff but Cares, 3. Miss me a lot and needed to know that I'm alive and 4. No impt stuff, don't care but just had nothing to do.

I guess "nothing to blog" don't really exist after all, because I just proved to myself that you can still blog about nothing. As long as you login and click "New Post", theres definitely something to bitch about. Hmm...

No pictures, cause I've been really just WoW-ing, maybe I'll update with a screenshot of my Rogue, KW's Shadow Priest and JW's Shaman lol~

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

7th Feb 07, Wed

2007-02-07T01:32:00.000+08:00

Well, went to work... was almost late due to the previous post uploading pictures was so slow... Nothing special, today I was on the East line and there was Simei, Tampines & Bedok stations, was hoping to see maybe Stella, Qin Qing, Gracedotcom mei or Stacy but ah well not fated haa~

I was basically too tired for any picture fun nor to do much nor notice anything going on, was pretty stone the whole day actually. Well after knocking off, Marcus had Zhi Ming to ride him and we decided to go for supper with their friend Serena. Rae called suddenly to invite me to her new workplace in Boat Quay, but well... Wouldn't it be weird to go there alone... Hmm... Guess I've got to let her down this time, felt very bad afterwards.

Marcus said bedok for supper but we all ended up in Parkway Mac, his friend arrive later on. Very nice and friendly girl, well its just chilling out until late, I had to eat Mac -.- boo~ Ah well, was good since I'm so stone today.

Guess what? I just reached home and was wondering there isn't anything to put up today until the first thing I saw on my laptop screen...

Yea, what the hell man... Sigh... Doh~ And I'm now feeling bad that I didn't go Boat Quay to support support Rae a bit, she sounded weird over the phone just now, maybe it was too boring on a Tuesday night hmm..? Well I guess I'll go bath and WoW for awhile since noone is online, tomorrow got to go base for my 2nd IPPT trial... Hopefully I'll get my silver timing up... But I hasn't done any training yet Zzz -.- zzZ

Suddenly very sian after such an eventful week have passed. Its back to the boring old Tian Zun. Maybe I'll go find Serena's friendster and add her =P~ haha No ba, anywayz... I so feel like shit, living is so meaningless all of a sudden... (And no, I won't go commit suicide. I'll probably take a picture and moblog before I do so as to keep you people informed and come for my funeral, else I bet none of you 'my friends' will know -.-)

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Long awaited update =P~

2007-02-06T06:17:00.000+08:00

First off, work. LOL~ Previous post was on Sat. thru my phone. But I've yet to blog since? Weds. Yes. LOL~ It was a relaxing day @ work on weds. As I was on mobile patrol again. Heres some pics of me and co.

Then Thurs. was a day full of expenses, I was like busy paying bills, making calls and checking out the outstanding payments and dates and etc. Thurs was admin day... -.- no pics cuz admins are boring lol~ Its really irritating, and I've confirmed my registration with NTU so I'm prolly going EEE direct year 2 this Aug -.- Man, the pressure. (mind you, not pleasure *aHeM*)

Fri... OMG~ TGIF right... The start of all mayhem, yea it was KW's birthday and I met up with KW n co. (GY, me, Ivan, KS, KW, JW & YY). I carried on with admin stuff till noon 3+ went to NP to meet up with KS for 'lunch', Jeslyn joined us and we had a great time. Soon it was close 7PM we needa go meet KW & co. so we headed off, first dropping Jes home. But KS as a noob rider, went missing and since Jes's bag was on his bike, me and Jes relax in SSDC before he arrives.

An hour late, it was close 830PM, KW & Co. finished dinner and so headed off to Bishan Party World first, finally after KS reached and Jes went home. We made our way down and had a fabulous time. More pictures to be uploaded, this time on multiply. Stay tuned :P~

Right, so here comes the complication, I'm suppose to head off to Jim's farewell but then all da party ended early so in the end I stayed by KW's group. Stacy's sudden sms of her being in A&E SGH was shocking and I had to check her out. The long MIA Ken msg'd me for drink in Outram was also very sudden. So well, theres only 1 me I can't be at everywhere at the same time right? Anyway, Stacy was with her boyfriend (-.-) and Ken's side ends @ 2 AM, so I decided to stay along for a few games of DotA with KW & Co.

Nothing much then, we DotA & WoW till morning breaks then breakfast and I headed straight off to work (WTF~). Sat, there was 8 persons on leave, see how nice our Teamleader was? But still some bastards choose to MC. So we were down on manpower and Kelvin seems pissed. Ah well, I was doing NE Line, saw a few friends on duty, nothing much. Evening time wanted to head straight down to Cheryl's chalet with Abel but ah well, Abel no can do so I met up with Ken and his colleagues in Queenstown for drinks, Vincent joined me moments after.

Went home after sending Ken back, slept till noon and Sunday, SSgt Bryan's lil'girl's first month, we all went to Woodlands to graTz him of the occassion, :P~ Everyone headed off soon after to Sentosa for some sunday fun. I had to wait for KS to pass me my stuff from Prudential, Beng Heng came like after the whole world left. omg~ And happened to KS be Primary sch. friends with Beng Heng, what a disaster... o.O

I was in a rush to meet Rae in Vivo, and turned out KS had to be late again. It made me an hour late for my date. BIG BIG Disaster. :( What was worst is I had no cash on me and left my ATM card on my bike. I'm beginning to think Sunday was a disaster, and it turned out to be no better, after dinner with Rae I headed off to Sentosa wanting to relax one corner with Cheryl and company only to see my colleagues in Sentosa but no signs from Cheryl & co.

For a long long time, still no signs from Cheryl & Co. so I decided to have another dinner with my colleagues from NS. We all headed to Bugis and there we had an hour long steamboat supper. Till 11PM, well after that everyone's beat and went home, I headed down to TJ Pagar EQ, where Stacy works, had some beer and to check her injuries out. Went home after she knocks off and slept till late on Monday.

Monday, ahh... Gotta work tml. So ya, no mood for nothing, not even blogging. I woke up. Stoned for a long time, decided to WoW (Afterall, I started a new character in KW & Co.'s server) ya, so WoW I did, till like 6 AM where I finally stopped and decided to get all these stuff blogged down and head off to work like as soon as this is published lol~

So yeap, hope you guys did miss me and I'm sorry for those who tried to get me last night while I was WoW-ing cause I really wasn't in the mood for anything else. Kekeke Videos on Sentosa Express to be uploaded on PhotoBucket, stay tuned ehehe, time to go now. Hope nothing funny comes up today. I'm so exhausted haa~

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Busy week

2007-02-03T11:07:00.001+08:00

Man, busy week and a busier weekend ahead, oh my god. I've been running around, making calls and hitting my highest record for sms.

Last night, took a break at Jes place busstop. Lol, with ks. More update tonight, working now. Haha.

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

At Peace

2007-01-31T03:17:00.000+08:00

It was work day, covering for team Alpha. Hope those who went chieng mai enjoy themselves. It was full of bullcrap, but theres many things I can't post up here, first, violation of the military crap. second, I heard my team leaders might read these shits. So anyway, I took these shot on Monday. And those really cute shots above are Fu Chen Lok, I like to call him RX-8, but I think he'll feel offended or something.

Yea, then I lost my pass (to my camp) on the way to work in the morning, so I went to look for it mid night, roaming on upp thomson flyover and lornie road with a torch, darn it I only found the remains of the cover, card no where to be found... Need to police report then alot of bull shit Zzz, worst thing is, what I've said before came true, I ran out of patrol on top of the flyover. I msg a few people guess no one seems to care. How usual isn't it? Zzz Heres a photo on top of the flyover when I took a break for a smoke from pushing... Zzz

Oh... And one of the front bulb burst.. sianz... $$ Again... Ah well, today's my off day... Suppose to meet Flarer in the morning to fetch his bike but I guess I screwed again, met him in the noon and got his bike, took his ERP bracket and put on my bike since he changed a centered one. Mine's like crap now, but my bike has always looked like crap anywayz.

So yea. then I came home, guess what and was bored, took some retarded pictures as above... Wei Long called me, met him in AMK then to upp thomson for dinner, guess who I saw? Zhuang Mi Xue, Michelle!! OMG~ She came to the same Meng Kitchen after we sat down, omg I've had my time checking her out. She's just so sweet and beautiful. I love it, I just like her while many say I'm overrating her but ah well. To each his own.

Then went to TPY suppose to meet Flare but then his over at Kenko D&D so gotta wait for it to end, so I find Cheryl to chat her up. After awhile she went to have dinner @ Lor 5/7, Flare's not done yet, so I went on to meet Zhi Qiang for coffee, and I bumped into Cheryl again lol~ But I didn't get to meet Zhi Qiang, cause before he even arrived (though on the way, paiseh leh Sgt) Flarer was done.

So yea, met Flare up, he and co. decided to go Party world @ Shenton so we went ahead. Oh no, I mean they went ahead on a cab, Flare holland-ed and I had to go get him and bring him there Zzz. It was a very fun bunch of people, but I guess we're just not in the mood... I'll love to have my own fun bunch too, crazy group of people, like I always do back in the days when I was so chatty. But ah well... Zzz Flare decided to leave so I too, left along with him, cause I know he doesn't know the way back and I don't know the whole bunch anywayz...

Home now, decided to blog since can't sleep Zzz Later got shift again, so sianz... chatting with Sylvia... Going to Audition to find her -.- she went on ahead 10 minutes ago Zzz

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Me

2007-01-29T02:52:00.000+08:00

In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine. Because I alone chose it.

I own everything about me, my body, my thoughts, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all of my actions. Whether they be to others or to myself.

I Own My Fantasies, My Dreams, My Hopes, My Fears.

I own all my truimphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes. Because I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me. By doing so I can love me and be friendly with me in all my parts.

I know there are aspects about myself that puzzles me, and other aspects that I do not know. But as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me.

However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whtaever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me.

If later some parts of how I looked, sound, thought and felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that I discarded.

I can see, hear, feel, think, say and do. I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me.

I am me, and therefore I can engineer me. --- I AM ME and I AM OKAY!

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

I'm super stressed out right now...

2007-01-28T01:48:00.000+08:00

I'm under a lot of pressure right now, its 3 days before NTU registration close, I don't see anything in the special term stuff, I think I'll just go in normally. I think I will be sharing room with Ivan, is it a good thing or a bad one, I don't know I can't think, I have mental block right now. Everything is so fucked up confusing right now, Ivan still deciding whether he'll be going to NTU or NUS, Zzz -.- zzZ ahhhhhhhhh I can't take all these anxiety and stress. I'm going crazy. Oh wait, I'm already nuts or rather thats what everyone thinks of me anyways.

And she's getting married, well, what does it matter right? NO! Yes... I guess, maybe. I don't know WTF! ARGH!!! Go go get married before 25 like you always wanted to, I can't marry you before 25 anyway!! WTF! Argh... There isn't anyone who gives a damn about me anyway, why am I so fucked up, borned this way, with a half-fucked look. I need a break! Not alone, with someone, someone who really cares. But what the heck, who the hell cares nowadays. Zzz

I pack my house today, and thats basically the only thing I did today, apart from having some games with Abel & Co. chat a lot online but seriously, who cares eh? Oh yea, chat with Joan (aka. Zhuzhu) been a long time since I've seen her online... Blah, but don't think she's interested in chatting so ah well... Whatever.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Dj Alex, In the mix

Now you're gone, I realise my love for you was strong
And I miss you here, now you're gone. I keep waiting here by the phone
With your pictures hanging on the wall
(2x)

Is this the way it's meant to be? Only dreaming that you missing me
I'm waiting here at home, I go crazy, now you're gone

There's an empty place in my heart
Without our love it will break apart
It wont heal, it never fades away
I will think about you every day

You're in the mix with Dj Alex!

Are You Ready!

Ready For Take Off!

Now you're gone, I realise my love for you was strong
And I miss you here, now you're gone. I keep waiting here by the phone
with your pictures hanging on the wall

Is this the way it's meant to be? Only dreaming that you missing me
I'm waiting here at home, I go crazy, now you're gone
(2x)

There's an empty place in my heart, Without our love it will break apart
It wont heal, it never fades away, I will think about you every day

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Well... Past 2 days lol~

2007-01-27T03:44:00.000+08:00

Its like, I kept missing on one day isn't it? LOL~ Anyway, Thursday was pretty much boring, I sat here bitch'in `bout the past 2 days until evening and met up with Rusty and his friend Wei Liang, then talked about stuff till kinda late after which just came home and slept till today (Friday) afternoon.

Woke up, chat online, cleared mailboxes, waste some time then Stacy called, wanted to have lunch/dinner. So well, we fixed a time, I went to AMK to bank my cheque and cleared some bills before heading home to clear up.

Then it started to rain, what kinda bitch weather is it man. All of a sudden, wtf. around 4:50 PM rain, I'm suppose to be @ Chai Chee by 5:20 PM, ah well, I went to the patrol station and hit on the $2.00 mode again as I'm still broke, I took a picture of the drizzle that looked a lot like snowing but ah well, the picture didn't turn out too well due to the sun's lighting. I rode in the rain to be there on time, fetch her then went to ECP hawker for food which she has been whining about wanting to do so for the past 2 months.

We've had satays, hokkien mee, duck wings, chicken wings and she's still wanted to have crab I was like :O wtf. Zzz~ LOL~ The weather was, as usual, being a bitch as its just so Singaporean to be one. We just sat beside the shelter near the beach and chat till the rain stopped, and at this point of time my phone went totally dead so no further pictures Zzz.

So yea, after that fulfilling meal I took her to Paragon for some shopping (she wanted jeans), we walked around blahblah `bout stuff, went to levis and in the end she bought a top, and me a shirt, the darn shirt is like Small size but still too big for me wth, I promised I need to do at least a thousand pushups a day to fit in it man (Like Sgt Zhi Qiang aka. Loti-Boy~ LOL~). Well anyway she proceeding for more shopping spree just like the shopping bag says (I feel like a Born to shop kinda mood) wtf man, she got some gold lip gloss and shimmering eye liner from YSL before I stopped this insanity and tempted her with instant nicotine. There was some live jazz band right outside paragon playing the song IF from Bread or so she says.

Anyway then sent her to Tanjong Pagar EQ where she meets her bf and I head home, sat here and waste time, the moment I switch on the TV there was Dark Water showing on Channel U, I tried to get Qin Qing lol~ but to no avail I guess anyway its some inside joke. Well I skipped the show, its been raining like crazy and some show to be on wtf is mediacorp thinking. Anyway I went on MSN and caught up with some old online friends namely, Charlene, Hua Er, Zill, Josie and guess what, EUNICE LOL~ JesterGal! Haa~ Ah well, seems like all the guys been out on TGIF, so I have all the guai guai girls to chat with how nice? LOL~

Well, decided to blog since I want to cultivate the habit and I've been so lazy recently. Gotta build some discipline. Tomorrow's gonna be so tiring, gonna be packing up the whole darn place and go for jogs (IPPT -.-) and some circuit training (To fit in the shirt, right... LOL~). And Flarer's bike might be done so I might need to send him there to fetch it. Guess I'll stop bitch'in now and chat with Rusty and Jas_ aka. bLuR^LiNg lol~

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Past 2 days~

2007-01-25T15:04:00.000+08:00

Well heres an update for the past 2 days lol~ Been kinda tired doing RT, well zzz I'm on leave for 3 working days which translates to 11 off days including the past 2 days. I'm pretty broke too... lol~ Gotta go get my stuff settled down, and I'm kinda unstable recently -.- sighya.

Anywayz, back to biz. Some pictures while on duty 22nd Jan'07, erm... yea hope my sirs don't see this lol~ Just another boring working day lol. These few days I've been busy running around for Flarer's bike stuff -.- ba I 4got to take some pictures 4 blog but ah well, it slipped my mind, his got an engine overhauled Zzz and the bike is not even a year old. Blah~ Shame on Albert Motors Pte Ltd.__.

Then my 2 off days were burnt on RT (Darn, I'm freaking aching all over), yea I'm working toward my silver (or Gold) for my IPPT before ORD!! (JUNE WOOHOO!~).

Well then the 1st off was like drizzling the whole freaking day so I didn't do much, just went to check out how things was going for Flare's bike then went home and took some rest. Wasn't very stable either zzz. More on yesterday though, I went to collect my $100 bux prize from MediaCorp that I won from the stupid Mini-rally SMS-interactive game on Channel U off-transimission hours LOL~ Yea, for those who think I'm very bo liao, I totally agree with you LOL~

Then I brought Flarer to fetch MC from the beloved Dr. Leong in Serangoon, check his bike out (which I 4got to take the photos zzz -.-), headed to Marina Square for a few games of Dungeons & Dragons II (D&D) then to his GF work place and back home all with $2.00 worth of patrol!! I reached home with an empty tank and pumped another 2 bux LOL~. Yea, am pretty broke now damn...

LOL~ See my empty tank? LOL~ Really empty lor kns my bike stopped 10 metres away from the patrol station lol~ Yea this the second time I pulled this stunt off. Someday you might receive a call from me asking for help in the middle of CTE LOL!!! Anywayz, zoom into the letter and you'll see the cheque. $100 bux MUWahAhaha~ LOL~

As for today, update later lol. Busy uploading the pics I've promised since ages ago. ha~~ And chatting with Rusty, Janet~♥~ & Gracedotcom mei~♥~

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Complex

2007-01-23T12:16:00.001+08:00

I have mixed feelings right now...

I'm experiencing complicated emotions...

I have no drive...

I'm undergoing depression...

I need some time off...

I think I need to see a psychiatrist...

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Boring Sunday

2007-01-21T16:28:00.000+08:00

Well I reached home from the BBQ around 7 AM in the morning because after our depart I went to meet up with Abel, one of my better friend in NS. Talked a lot about r/s till morning, blah. And then reached home fell alseep, until around 3 PM plus.. Zzz~

Woke up theres nothing to do, nothing to eat, smoke, chat on MSN sit in front of my blog and hope someone would tag me. And then winter came and we chat about stuff and realise I don't even have my brother's friendster Zzz I did a search and certainly it came up and I added him.

Blah, I still hasn't got the photos up, I'm still wondering whether I should photobucket them or multiply them. I think I would both but just so lazy ahaha. Zzz~ For now I'm just pesturing Sylvia, KS and winter on MSN LOL~

Some picture of mine from the past. Zzz~

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

BBQ!

2007-01-20T20:52:00.001+08:00

Hey people I'm now at Changi Beach Park with #ffdreamworld people. Theres GleyFox n gf, MiSo_SoUp n gf, AuciferXIII, JokerD, Ronnie, Clair n bf, Humanoid, Iverson, Giri, RoNg^eR n bf, winter^, Griever n Stacy n Me.

Heres some picture for now. Will upload the rest when I get home lol

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

I'm Timid Don't Scare Me

2007-01-20T10:06:00.000+08:00

LoL~ Yesterday was pretty boring ba, was doing ops control duty. After which, someone said wanna meet me for a drink but I tio tua but ah well, its just the way she is. Then forgot to give john a call because have to go and see how is Sam's bike. Pretty bad, piston jammed Zzz~ Think its not gonna be cheap this time :(

Anyway, saw this cute lil'bike in the shop. Omg~ LOL~ SGD $5,000 the shop is selling it. 80cc 2-stroke~ But KaWaii~~ LOL~~~ Enlarge the side view photo and you'll see the words on the bike, "I'm timid, don't scare me" LOL!~ OMFG~~!!

Then came home and sleep, later going for FFDreamworld outing, now sorting my handphone stuff and uploading stuff to multiply, will provide the links for you people from here too :P~ Just some photos ha~~

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Bored n Testin moblog

2007-01-18T14:29:00.001+08:00

I'm so bored :( tomorrow got to work and have no plans today. Hai... Just feeling so dead.

Anyway testing pictures sent via moblog. This my 2m x 2m room. 1 from outside the door. The other from my 'bed', a paramount pic. Yea, i sleep eat surf blog on that chair lol.

So sianz... Will see her on Sat zzz... What's becoming of me man.

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Testing Moblog again lol

2007-01-17T01:59:00.001+08:00

Well I've been trying to send this shit a dozen times till i finally got it. My original post got corrupted, wtf. Anyway finally got the shit to work.

I'm too lazy to send the files so I'm just sending my post thru e-mail to blogger thru my phone haha

Nothing much today, basically just work and stuff, really have no mood... Hai... Ah well, thanks for those who've tagged me ha, and Grace, what's your new blog URL? I wanna link you leh.

Well anyway heres Fazlan for you guys lol. And then before i go home, sent Alvin to Serangoon Gardens. Blah nothing much, now going supper with Roland, lend him bike to practice for upcoming TP. Zzz

How you guys like my bgm? Tagged me!!

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Mobile blog test lol

2007-01-17T01:47:00.001+08:00

Well lazy to upload photo from phone so just blog from it haha anyway i'm outside too so ah well.

Today is just work, not really in the mood too. Nothing much happened really. Oh, heres Fazlan joker lol.

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

She...

2007-01-16T06:26:00.000+08:00

is getting married...

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

I'm... Hungry...

2007-01-15T01:10:00.000+08:00

I woke up noontime, realised its Sunday, LTA not open. V.Tired went back to sleep, woke up @ 5 PM bro using the box :( went back to sleep, woke up @ 11 PM bro still using the cable so I switched to teevee till now... Finally can online.. Zzz

Moment I sat down... Felt hungry... When was my last meal? Oh yea... With jimmy dude in the morning... Darn... I'm so hungry... Zzz Anyone for supper? Tag me or msn me or better still.. Just call me... X.X

I'm Hungry...

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

What NS Do To You

2007-01-14T08:30:00.000+08:00

Well, I just posted about yesterday and Kai Sheng's mysterious empty messages on MSN that kept on huanting me all night on ambigious intervals then he replied me this...

§ﺀĦأζקסּђЯέהּΐς-אּ :- [Currently with no working computer and can't online, get me @ 96541576] -: ώҢд۳ Τң∂ ₣џ¢Ҝ мΔמּ!! says:
you got so bored bo?
۞ ⌠Ψ☻מĞ Ķ§⌡ ۩ ⌠ ΔĦ ρЭҜ ⌡ ۞ I am your chew toy, your teddy's rubber duckie says:
sry
۞ ⌠Ψ☻מĞ Ķ§⌡ ۩ ⌠ ΔĦ ρЭҜ ⌡ ۞ I am your chew toy, your teddy's rubber duckie says:
not bored...
§ﺀĦأζקסּђЯέהּΐς-אּ :- [Currently with no working computer and can't online, get me @ 96541576] -: ώҢд۳ Τң∂ ₣џ¢Ҝ мΔמּ!! says:
then
۞ ⌠Ψ☻מĞ Ķ§⌡ ۩ ⌠ ΔĦ ρЭҜ ⌡ ۞ I am your chew toy, your teddy's rubber duckie says:
is i sleep...den hit the space key...
۞ ⌠Ψ☻מĞ Ķ§⌡ ۩ ⌠ ΔĦ ρЭҜ ⌡ ۞ I am your chew toy, your teddy's rubber duckie says:
l;ol
§ﺀĦأζקסּђЯέהּΐς-אּ :- [Currently with no working computer and can't online, get me @ 96541576] -: ώҢд۳ Τң∂ ₣џ¢Ҝ мΔמּ!! says:
........
§ﺀĦأζקסּђЯέהּΐς-אּ :- [Currently with no working computer and can't online, get me @ 96541576] -: ώҢд۳ Τң∂ ₣џ¢Ҝ мΔמּ!! says:
u sure or not
۞ ⌠Ψ☻מĞ Ķ§⌡ ۩ ⌠ ΔĦ ρЭҜ ⌡ ۞ I am your chew toy, your teddy's rubber duckie says:
den u think wat...
§ﺀĦأζקסּђЯέהּΐς-אּ :- [Currently with no working computer and can't online, get me @ 96541576] -: ώҢд۳ Τң∂ ₣џ¢Ҝ мΔמּ!! says:
how i know
§ﺀĦأζקסּђЯέהּΐς-אּ :- [Currently with no working computer and can't online, get me @ 96541576] -: ώҢд۳ Τң∂ ₣џ¢Ҝ мΔמּ!! says:
u too lonely
§ﺀĦأζקסּђЯέהּΐς-אּ :- [Currently with no working computer and can't online, get me @ 96541576] -: ώҢд۳ Τң∂ ₣џ¢Ҝ мΔמּ!! says:
then send me empty messages lor
§ﺀĦأζקסּђЯέהּΐς-אּ :- [Currently with no working computer and can't online, get me @ 96541576] -: ώҢд۳ Τң∂ ₣џ¢Ҝ мΔמּ!! says:
http://schizophrenicx.blogspot.com/
۞ ⌠Ψ☻מĞ Ķ§⌡ ۩ ⌠ ΔĦ ρЭҜ ⌡ ۞ I am your chew toy, your teddy's rubber duckie says:
lol

Yea, and I realised... Caffaine kills brain cells, Nicotine kills brain cells, Work kills brain cells, but none of them does it as efficient as National Service. And whats worst? It drains you off physically too. WTF~ Eh KS at least you're attached now, and so is Jimmy, and Flarer, and Roland, and Tien Hou, and I guess everyone else that I go out with. So WTH dude... I should be the one that is bored ok! LOL!~~

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Ouch! Ouch! I Will Work~

2007-01-14T08:04:00.000+08:00

Well, its just a boring working day, I've specially reminded Kid Chua Zhen Yu to bring 'Teach Yourself Java in 21 Days' for me to read on OCC duty which I had confirmed since last tour. But all thanks to Daniel Tan Jit Wee (And the rest who were on MC), total 7 person was on MC and somehow the teamleader thought that Beng Heng is dying and put me on ground instead. Isn't all that like wtf? But ah well, I'm in no position to bargain Zzz~ Suddenly I so look forward to ORD-ing~ LOL~ I went on ground with Andy Chua, Arzeru and Jason, North-South Line. Met a lot of people while on ground, why? Because Andy very siao on (or ham ji if you must) so walk walk whole day sure see a lot of friends (which includes Jimmy, Stanley Chao Zi Kit @ Orchard, Cheryl Toh @ TPY and Evelyn @ Bishan). Early in the morning there were some idiots monkeying around in the train and got fucked by us badly, then in Bishan we further humiliated some idiot in front of his girls. I guess thats what you get for pissing the policemans off on the wrong day.

Anyway, after work reached home downloaded and viewed Axe replay and fell asleep in front of my workdesk (WTF?) till my brother woke me up around 12 AM and mom came home. Had maggie mee for dinner which makes my second meal of the day and watch the Police Story 2 by Jackie Chan before I regain possession of my workdesk from my brother's domination. People went on without me on DotA because I didn't know what time I would be able to get back online while my brother enjoys his time on cyberspace. So what do I have left? Nothing, I MSN and did some admin stuff on blogs, e-mails, photobucket, mp3, etc. etc. until I MSN'd Stella, lol~

Well, basically I was having a conversation with Christopher Zhou Jian Wei about his blog and stuff, then he commented that I'm pretty dumb on these stuff which I don't deny, hey... I'm bad on HTML and so what if you're a genius, I don't earn a living out of these LoL~ Well, in a bit he went to sleep so I went on to go on AUDITION with Stella (WTH Right?) yeah, I did and I have a Level 4 Audition character and I seriously suck on Audition, I probably would do a vidz recording if I could play Audition like I do on O2Jam even though I won't say I'm fantastic in that too.

Had some fun getting bullied by a 16 year old lady until around 5 AM where Jimmy called and came over to my place, carried on slacking, Kai Sheng kept flooding me with empty messages and no replies what is he up to and MSN with Stella till what? 6+ AM When she decided to call it a day, me and Jim headed off to Shunfu Mart for breakfast and talked about degrees and stuff, then suddenly we realise how old we are and how primary and secondary school were so much fun, spent sometime with our past and then he too headed home for a nap.

Ah well, I didn't get my bike road tax going the other day when I said I would because why? Rain, yes, it has been raining. Argh, ah well maybe I'll get it done and probably if Stacy doesn't call and ask me out (which she probably won't even though she promised to call but she always "forgets") I'd probably be at home reading about Java, HTML, S.U.M.O & organising my stuff for this year. Especially before I ORD, so much credits to clear and so many things on hold, sighya~ I hope this year will finally start to pick up for me, last year has been a whole lot of bullcrap. And oh yea... :( IPPT Trial on Wednesday in-service too, might go for a 2.4km run later if weather permits. Zzz~ Maybe I'll do a small update later tonight whilst testing some imaging stuff here. Blah~

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

Supper

2007-01-13T05:14:00.000+08:00

Well I just had supper with Jia Wei (ACS) & Kai Sheng (NP) @ Prata House, I woke up around 10:00 PM after I decided the rain isn't gonna stop for another century and went to sleep in the afternoon, woke up and had a game with PMU guys, still as frustrating ahh~~ argh, ah well. Losing never felt good anyway. Blah~

Was trying to find an embedded mp3 player and mp3 hosting site. :( Not doing a very good job getting it to play by itself, but ah well, finally got picture up. Anyone knows how to do alpha and *.gif or however other people do those flipping images? LOL~

I guess next thing up would be the calender or the layers, depends on my mood and the difficulty of the codes :P~ I think I gotta get some HTML basics in first lol~ Gonna be on Java for the next week though, don't ask me I don't know why too lol~

Blah, its 5:20 AM in the morning. Going to work in a hours time, maybe Abel's coming to pick me up since his BMW can drive in on weekends =P~ MuwAhaHa~ Gonna be working on the autoplay now. Be back in a bit *bLiNk*

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

A Brand New Start

2007-01-12T11:55:00.000+08:00

Yeah, I can consider this as the first post of the blog (After so many freaking years, yes). I announced in multiply that this would be my official blog and people will start falling in here to know what I'm up to and have been doing.

I started my day (or rather didn't end yesterday) with a game of DotA (Yes. Again) and MSN chats with some old friends, Heng Yi (aka. Esmond) is in Hong Kong for Business Trip (Business man now la!) it makes me feel like a jerk, I mean I'm still serving NS and bloody hell everyone else is flying all over the world making success. Joanne, she's like my idol or something, owns a car, great job, great r/s, great family everything is great! So is viv. I've had a small chat with Jo before she had to go do stuff (@ work) and well she changed her URL and I didn't know lol~

Iceve, well... nothing much to say...

§ﺀĦأζקסּђЯέהּΐς-אּ :- [Currently with no working computer and can't online, get me @ 96541576] -: ώҢд۳ Τң∂ ₣џ¢Ҝ мΔמּ!! says:
hope can get back
*** PrinCess EVil ~ Lost my motorla raza v3x.. says:
fuck lah

Yeah, she lost her HP. Police report done, hopefully she'll get it back. And she isn't in very good shape now :( So all the best to you Eve.

Josh, Canadibu. It seems like a decade since I last 'spoke' to you man, the last time I saw you I lost my bike LOL! Anyway, my bike isn't in very good condition now :( and dude, be more confident of yourself, you ARE gifted.

#ffdreamworld is holding a outing on the 20th this month, hope I'll get to see all those people back in the days of IRC, I seriously can't recognise many of them, herman is back from Australia too. I guess we'll be enjoying our time out :P~ People like Ronnie, Clair, Joyce, Rickson, Herman, etc. etc.

Well, I just had a game of DotA with Marcus, Alvin & Augustine and Alvin, you really suck la (woops! LOL~), anyway its also been a long time since I met up with Augustine and company. Wow... NS really casts you away from the society, the communities that I've once been so closed to and never thought would feel so distant have drifted away so much now that I can't feel the presence of some anymore. Suddenly, all these MSN conversations reminds me of tons of people like Sing Ju, Brother Sam, Kenny, Sean, Junren, Zhi Xin, Terry, Ming Jian, Lincoln, Cui Ping, Er Chang, Filbert, Julia, Jessica, Wendy, Joan, Churn Tuck, Joanne, Enight, Ken, Ming Yu, Yi Wei, Stacy and many more. I feel so disconnected, so empty, so alone, I guess its just human instinct to know and be known, to understand and to be understood. I wonder when will I meet these people again, or have/create such close bonds with people again...

Well, as of now I still have around SGD$1,000 on credit that I have to clear, my bike is pretty much screwed up and without the proper road tax and insurance cover (which I shouldn't really be riding at all), my lappy is down and I have no desktop PLUS I have my handphone outstandings to clear. My life's pretty much screwed now, gotta train up for March IPPT, get prepared for NTU and I'm going to go get my bike documents done up now. Maybe I'll post tonight :P~

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

2007-01-12T05:05:00.000+08:00

Testing one without the title. Anyone, I've set here for what? An Hour? Looking through the codes of blogger. Trying to have a slightest idea of their code and database. Zzz Guess I hasn't been studying nor exercising much, my brain is really slowing down. How am I gonna cope when I'm in NTU like this. I failed my IPPT trial today, its disappointing and saddening. Hai~ I've never failed 2.4, even if I had stitch, very bad stitch. :( I guess I will just start all the things I've been promising myself to do ages back. NS really sucks :(

I found out Kaisheng also have blog LOL~ yongks, his usual nick, just like mine lol~ I hope this blog doesn't die out like his (or the other several attempts I've done ages back...) and for that I'll need all you people out there to support me!! I've just inserted a cbox. And I think I wanna layer my blog too. But ah well, this is going to be a long project. Course I'm like so lazy and theres just so much to be done. If theres actually people reading my blog I just might get perked up like how I used to be. I'm going to go out and check if my pay comes and go get that desktop.

And that reminds me, I wanna hereby thank Abel Tan Peng Hiap for being so nice and lending me his lappy till my desktop arrives. And for the drive I've got just being around him, I went on to the shop near penisula that Alvin Tan mentioned and found a motherboard replacement @ SGD $250 for my IBM T30. So I guess after I get my desktop, repay all the debt I'm in and stuff, I would get my lappy done up too. But by then I guess I would've already own another new one while getting enlisted in NTU after I ORD (YEAH!!) in Jun, so maybe, just maybe I would give my beloved, used and abused IBM T30 to my brother, but on one conditioned that he would really NEED it and gets into a POLYTECHNIC.

I'm gonna do up a calender so you people would know when I'll be available, as of current there isn't anyone except for brother Sam that knows of this blog so ah well.. LOL~ Do jio me out for coffee sometimes, I need a place to host photos and other medias (mp3, movie, etc.) Anyone kind enough to get my hands on some great sites and give me a hand on the codings? I want alpha mouseon too :P~ LOL~

P.S Oh, I removed the comments thing since I've got my cbox up. But I just found out that cbox basic only stores 100 latest messages. So I guess I'll leave the comments up and do comment when you feel like letting the whole world know how much your words would meant to me :P

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"

TEST

2007-01-12T02:59:00.000+08:00

This is like. to test. erm. doh. I really don't know how to html lor. Zzz WTF! Argh. How to change the fucking layout man. doh~ I Have this account since ages ago but then still got nothing in here. wtf.~~

And yea. I'm like totally bored right now after 2 games of DotA with SGT Sam's & Co. Its like my first time using VS and got owned and stuff. Then we had another -random -spapsh match. Chaos Knight. Doh -.- Ah well. As for now, I'm chatting with Bro.Sam and reading some sources. Everyone else went to sleep. I'm gonna check out how to use all these bullshit and will update with some picture as soon as I fucking find out how to use blogger and post pics DOH! Reading so much html gives me headache. Programming again :( BooHOo~

Anyway, I've had some previous stuff in here if you wanna know more about me, its just fuck la relax. http://schizophrenicx.multiply.com/ this link is also available on the right side navigation bar (My Multiply)

SchizophrenicX
"I'm not psychic; I'm just damn good"